Anyone who knows me knows the joker, the friend or my sharp scarcasam that can really sting. Well i hate to tell you friend you hardly know me at all. And as it turns out apparently I didnt either. Well not really anyway.
Was just sitting at home watching a Canadian War Film Heyna Road, watching friends chums and the foings on in Afganistan. I have never seen the Canadian Armed Forces shown in quite this way. Most movies gloss over the Candian sacrifice, at the end one half of the couple gets blown up only a day after he learns his Captain is pregnant with their child.
Something in me just let go and the waterfall started, I empathized with the bunch back at base. After having lost so much myself. I don’t cry as a rule but i just let them pour down my face not trying to stop them at all. My closest partners have always said why don’t you ever smile? I am content and happy inside but apparently very emotionless at the times it maters most. At least on the outside.
Conversly don’t let myself feel sad, always trying to keep control that middle ground for my emotions. So tonight I got sad and I cried, maybe tomorrow I’ll let myself smile. Not for the crowd but just for me. When I fight to keep everything neutral, when things go wrong they go really wrong in all sorts of ways.
Thanks for listening.
I Hope that you are satisfied, I really did’t know how bad. I HOPE YOU ARE CONSOLLED
As many of you know, I never ever stop trying when I sèe something I love,.
But as of today I sadly have to give that part away. Leaves in the breese.
I may be a big man, tough and gruff. But inside me I am just a little boy screaming wondering how everything went so wrong. Going through my boxes i found a little friend, I am positive that i bought it for someone. But with my meds and this scrambled egg memory I don’t know who.
In any case tonight I am missing, wanting and needing. So little friend you are keeping me safe tonight.
Yes I am a big fan of the no, lick and hack. But what I saw tonight even affected me and I love to push boundaries.
But wen I’m confronted by a commercial with a woman diving do I need to see. WHY JUST SHAVE, YOU CAN CHOOSE TO SMOOTH. CHOOSE SURPRISE OVER DULL. CHOOSE DESIGN OVER DULL. CHOOSE VENUS.
OK DO WE REALLY HAVE TO HAVE THIS TALK AGAIN? Fuck Sakes.
Peoples looks, wants or desires are not marketable.
Let’s have a talk two people meet, she likes him and back, or he meets him and him, or her and her.
The rest of the rainbow I don’t just get totally, but love to you all.
The thing that really pissed me off is that’s it’s aimed at impressionable people. Get shaving ya’ll. I peronally love the look but we don’t need marketing to sell us salsburby steak ready for the oven AND tell people what to clear the brush on.
Fuck I hate that crap, Mars could use some help here. You too my across the pond sweeds.