I am sitting here after eating a great meal, that I prepared and ate all alone. It’s one of those weird nights since Darlene and I got together that is nice, but lonely all at the same time.
It turns out that she’s out at her mother’s place tonight, partly due to weather and family obligations and I am glad she’s there. Not for the reasons one would expect, that we don’t get along or we had a fight. It’s not that at all.
Sometimes we all just need a night off. Right now I am (half assed expecting) the Winnipeg Police to be knocking on the door because I have AC/DC cranked to 11. Not really, my ears are too old for that crap but you understand what I am talking about I hope.
Don’t get me wrong I love Darlene with every fiber of my body, but sometimes it’s just good to get some ME time. I was a confirmed bachelor for many years before I met Dar, and everyone likes certain things. My particular thing when, she’s out for the evening is putting in a great concert DVD and maxing out the speakers. Is that a bad thing??? I hardly think so.
I tend to lead a pretty boring life at the best of times, I like my news at 6 and a few shows. So unwinding with some ear-splitting rock and roll to my mind seems like a good thing. Fist pumping in the privacy of ones home seems to be almost an unalienable human right.
So why do I feel guilty? Maybe because I wanted a night off? That she would be snowed in due to icy roads? Does that make me a bad person to want a night alone, do my chores and cook a nice meal? Crank some tunes and hog the bed?
Maybe I just miss her too much, or maybe I am just too Canadian? I don’t know.
In any case I have a shout out to send. Happy Birthday Mom. It was 3 years today that I started this adventure in blogging. I wished you a Happy Birthday then and I will do it again. We love you and wish you the best in all things.
Bobby and Darlene